Price
shaman told me that in order to receive the spirits gift
you hav to give away something
the most precious thing
i told him
i don't know what is the most precious for me
i'm ready for everything, let them take whatever they want
end justifies the means
i wrote down a note for myself on my way back home:
why would i meet with that girl if I'm about to turn into leopard?
few days later i met her
and felt something that i didn't feel for many years
it became crystal clear
same pattern in all these stories
hero's journey
but there's anti-hero's journey
the most precious thing you have is yourself
your humanity
your passions, your love
your pain and your fears
your dreams and hopes
everything you've ever loved and felt
places and peoples
moments that will be lost in time
like tears in the rain
no one will visit those places
no one will spend nights talking there and laughing
it's not about cheap drama of sacrifice
it's about the fact
that to assemble another world
you have to stop maintaining your current one
to leave yourself, whole
you can't become something bigger than human
and staying a human
maybe some part of you can't accept it
maybe he's scared, angry, mad
but you can feel inside
that He have already made the choice
and when the moment comes
...
El viaje definitivo
...Y yo me iré.
Y se quedarán los pájaros cantando.
Y se quedará mi huerto
con su verde árbol,
y con su pozo blanco.
Todas las tardes
el cielo será azul y plácido,
y tocarán, como esta tarde están tocando,
las campanas del campanario.
Se morirán aquellos que me amaron
y el pueblo se hará nuevo cada año;
en el rincón aquel de mi huerto
florido y encalado,
mi espíritu errará nostáljico...
Y yo me iré, y estaré solo, sin hogar,
sin árbol verde, sin pozo blanco,
sin cielo azul y plácido..
Y se quedarán los pájaros cantando.
